Thursday, September 25, 2025

Am I an Us or a Them?

I was certain
we had irreconcilable differences,
    that you felt contempt for me
 or even hatred.
 
I reinforced boundaries,
    protected my tender heart,
        and shut the rusted gate
    which led to that realm.
 
I secured the gate,
    hid the key,
        and declared the heart within
    battened and safe.
 
And I stayed away
    as dust gathered in those shadowy chambers.
 
Today, I feel your hand
    lightly brush mine as we
        mourn,
    side by side.
 
Probably unintended, I think, and that's fine.
 
Then again, 
    a spare touch,
        your soft fingers
    slipping into mine.
 
We wear the same grief in our eyes,
    and our hands 
        remember love,
    more than words cracked with age.
 
Hands, softly touching,
    eyes forward,
        all sounds cease
    in the swell of warmth across this iron gate.
 
Like a sun-bright morning,
    I feel the key
        as you press it into my palm.
 
Tenderly, you say
    Sweetheart, 
        I think it's time to go in.   
 
 
 
 
 

The Emporer

We tried to be good citizens.
We voted and kept up with the news,
We tended to the health of our communities.
 
We care.
 
Yet, here we are, in a world which celebrates despots
    at it's finest banquets,
as was demanded.
 
Now, we look to revolution.
    We revisit a past, where cruelty 
        faced courage and sacrifice,
    and was found wanting.
 
We stand up to bullies,
    We do not negotiate with terrorists.
 
We are patriots.
    Mama and Papa bears
        Protecting our nation
            With teeth. 
 
 
 
 

Melody

 


Traveling a life
     along these bones
Stretched highway measures femur
     Dark hollows through ilium
A quake in the belly
     Breath whispers a night sky

Heart pulses bright
        through stained bars
     Singing,
        open up. Open up.

And sometimes
     in moments kaleidoscopic
        and hushed
that cage does open up
     and a light drapes out
        which cannot be seen
A viscera that cannot
           be touched

But a song,
                yes,
       A song who can be sung.

Monday, June 19, 2023

Find me
Don't find me.
I'm here for you
Just not today.

They're reaching out.
The heart says
Take a number,
But they won't wait.
Some bang on the door,
Some walk away,
Others burn the place to the ground.
I said wait
I said I don't have room for more of you
I said I'm crumbling, can't you see?

And I crumble.
Just small bits at first,
Then like a fully burned log
 which has somehow maintained its shape,
I crumble to dust at the slightest disturbance.
No one can put me back together now.

I am all burned up
Cool ash in the fireplace
I am nirvana 
Dancing through infinite space

Find me
In the harmonic galaxy
That is our shared heart.
I am here with you. 

photo by Billy Smith

Wednesday, May 17, 2023

Gratitude Poem #19

What a gift
  To live this life
    In human form!
 
To feel touch
  and wind,
 deep emotion
   like undulating 
     waves on the sea
 
To see and hear
  beauty,
    nuanced and garish
   as it pours through
     and around
       this body.

Tuesday, May 16, 2023

 It's been awhile, I guess I better give a report!

I'm in a gift season currently, which is fun. For Mother's Day, I wrote mom a list of 50 things about her that I am grateful for. It was fun to think up! Lots of memories came through and it was surprisingly easy to get to 50. I thanked her for my Wonder Woman Underoos. I wish I still had them. 

I had a birthday event this past weekend and made a mix CD for my bandmate, Mr. Random. I always enjoy making these, but this one was extra fun because he wanted 'interesting/weird' music. I figured anything I am familiar with is probably also known to him, so I dove into Spotify and found lots of new stuff. It's a gift for both of us!

In work news, I'm finishing a small set of custom cherry door/window trim for some friends. I'm also about to embark on managing my own payroll rather than going through a service. Math! Details! I'm into it! 

What have you been up to?



Monday, May 1, 2023

Gratitude Poem #7

 Heart of the world
drums her landscape
in my chest.

From her dark hollows
I reach out
on the up beat -
in, on the down. 

Now you are beside me.
We reach out
on the up
in, on the down
 
Loving in synchronous time,
Polyphonous parade of divine.